Oh my goodness! Well, I am finally very close to leaving for India and I am excited and very nervous! I can't wait to meet all of the children at Hope. I have seen the older ones grow up(through pics of course) and finaally I get to meet them face to face :D! I am leaving January 3, 2009 and will return January 17. Yep, two full weeks! I am mainly nervous because evem though God laid it on my heart to visit them, I honeslty don't have anything on my heart to share with them. I feel so terrible about it, yet, I don't know what to do. I guess through all of the time we spend there with the meetings with the youth and meetings in the village if God has anything for me to share he will guide me! SO, I know I can trust in that! The other thing I am nervous about is NOT getting to go bc of the terrorism going on right now. I want to go regardless, but if the terrorism continues the trip will be cancelled! :*( Well, tomorrow my cousin Jason is getting married. I am so happy for him, yet I am sad at the same time. Of all the 9 cousins 5 are married and 4 of the 9 have children. That leaves 4 unmarried and without children. While I am happy for all of them in the back of my mind wish I too was married and had a family. :( I am O.K. being single while its very rough sometimes but I know who I can rely on, still being lonely just bites. I know that I'm not ready for it at this time and God is fully maturing me, I'm just ready to "fit" in. Not be the odd one out anymore! Oh well, in God's timing and not my own! :) Well, that's about all for now!!!